到目前为止...

看到站在最右边，车上的那位吗？那个便是我！

我对我的童年，并没有什么回忆。唯一能记得的，便是我的外婆家。

这儿便是我外婆家。我依稀记得，我曾与我的表姐在这儿抓过蚯蚓；曾拿过这儿的树叶来烧；曾在这儿玩过蜡烛，玩过火；

曾将石子，以那“非一般”的技术将其抛入废水池中，让它来个“轻功水上漂”！

我依然记得，我曾经最期待的，便是每个星期六及星期日。因为，我有的到外婆家玩！

我记得我妈曾说我的笑很难看，牙齿全都露出来了！

但现在对我而言，那笑... 并不难看；那笑... 是最纯的！

我... 何时才能再次笑的那么的难看呢？

我想... 大家都没有办法，再笑得那么难看了吧？

左边笑得最灿烂的那位，便是我！

这儿是哪儿啊？应该是云顶吧...

那时侯的大家，并没什么地方可去，最著名的，便是那儿。

小时候的我，并没有想那么多。

哪儿有得玩，就到哪儿玩；何时有得笑，便天真地... 笑吧！

小时候的我，并不知道什么是那个，不知道什么是这个；

不知道什么是云顶，更不知道什么是笑！

但原来，我在思考着什么是笑的同时，我已经在笑了...

我不曾想过为何要笑，但我知道只要我笑，我就会开心！

只要我开心，我就会笑！

这是幼稚园毕业的我。

要我回忆起当时的我啊？就这几个词出现在我脑海里：粿条汤，摩哆车，巴刹！

因为当时我接触最多的，便是这些东西，这些地方。

当时的我，常在上学时，放学时，都迫不及待的背着那百斤重的书包，

笨拙地跳上那陈旧的摩哆车。然后就紧紧地抱着他...... 上学，放学...... 上学，放学。

但我深信，现在的我，已经无法再次乘上那辆陈旧的摩哆车；再次这样从他背后紧紧地拥抱着他；再次天真无邪地去爱他...

在我成长的过程中，发生的事情太多，不好的回忆太多。

在成长的过程中，我也不断地再长高，不断地在长大，不断地学会了如何自立。

我也不想再坐在他后面，抱着他。

啊？我怎么那么。。。害羞吗？

这是小学的我。你问我能不能记起那么一点点的东西。即使是那么的一点点。

哎哟... 可以啦！！！

但是它们却是那么的模糊...

小学的我，其实便是个名副其实的小孩子！无时无刻，想的便是如何... 玩！

那是的我，并不是那么在意学业，但是就在我妈咪的一逼再逼之下，我被逼无奈地读啊读，写啊写。我还记得我被逼读到... 哭呐！

只能怪当时的我太听妈妈的话了！

但是现在回想起来，还挺需要感谢她的呐！

要不是没有她，现在的我不知会是什么样子的呢？
要不是她，我不会有被逼哭过的回忆；要不是她，我不会有那么值得怀念的回忆。

试想想，我已经不可能再被她这样逼着读书；我已经不可能再被她逼哭；我很难再有机会再在她的鞭笞下，辛勤的拼！

妈咪，

其实，我还是需要妳的骂；我还是需要妳与众不同的“疼”；我还是需要妳为我编辑时间表。

其实，我还想要妳替我收拾书包；我还想要妳替我准备所有文具；

我还想要妳替我穿上校服，将纽扣一颗一颗地扭起来；我还想要你替我穿上校裤，将拉链拉上，帮我塞衣，然后再将裤带拉紧... 

就像小时候一样。

是否觉得有点像第一张的图片呢？没错！
同一班人马，同一部连续剧。
只是，大家都长大了。

没错！大家的样子都有些许的改变，至于性格上的改变，就只有大家自己心里知道。

这部连续剧对我来说，曾经是那么的精彩，或许我会期待着下续集的开拍。
可惜的是，这部连续剧的续集不知道何时才能再开拍。

部份的女角及男角飞到了远方深造；部份的男角有了自己的事业；部份的男角即将成家。
现在就只剩下我这男角，前途迷茫...

还有，我已经不能站在车上了。就正如我的笑，再也没有往时的天真无邪了...

中学的我，毕业了。

目前为止，对我来说回忆最多的，便是现在。 FORM 5 的我。

回想起刚入学的我，我曾经是那么的不成熟；我曾经是那么的无知。

要是凭感觉，我觉得在我在 FORM 3 之前，对所有事物，都是一无所知的。
我是认真的——一无所知！
我不知道我在为何而拼；我不知道我是谁；我不知道我身边有谁；
我不知道上学是为了什么；我不知道补习是为了什么；我不知道活着是为了什么；
我不知道，什么都不知道... ...

虽然说，至今我依然有许多不知道如何解答的不知道，或许会有更多的不知道...
但是，至少现在一部分的不知道被解答了，剩下的不知道就... 算了吧！以后再来解吧！

这

是我目前的人生，

在这里

我有一股冲动，

想要感谢

目前为止

曾经出现在我人生中的所有人。

无论他们是谁。

无论他们是路人甲

或者是丙阿某，

他们都有可能改变我的人生。

更何况是我身边的人，

无论是赞美过我的人，

无论是批评过我的人；

爱我的人，

讨厌我的人，

我想要说

谢谢。

**看着我的成长，感触还真挺多的...

**对不起，华文课是我三科语文课中最差的一科。

Before. After.

This is the comparison of ME between BEFORE I know all my FRIENDs and AFTER I know all of FRIENDs, I mean this year.

BEFORE                                                                  AFTER

1. I am a nerd.                                                    I am "open" to the community!
2. I dare not to even look at a girl...                      I chat with them a lot! (lately.)
3. I am "moral"-ised.                                           I know how to be BAD!!! (although not very bad.)
4. I say "How are you?".                                      I say "YO!". (lately.)
5. I nod my head whenever I see anyone.             I raise my hand and give a "HI!" sign!
6. My telephone bill = RM0. (fail... =..=)               My telephone bill = let me count how many 0 it has...
7. Less outing, less MCD, less library.                  More outing, more MCD, more library!
8. I don't know how to drive.                               You all gave me a lot of chances to practice!
9. I don't know even a thing about K-stuff.           At least I listen to K-songs now!
10. I can live on without FRIENDs.                      I can't live even a day without FRIENDs!
11. I can't live without GAMEs.                              I can live, even with only FRIENDs!
12. I don't skip school.                                           I skip school! (at least 2 or 3 days. :P)
13. I kept everything to myself.                               I shared it with...! (not much though...)
14. No one chat with me on FACEBOOK. (fail)                 Someone chat with me on FACEBOOK!
15. I don't have a TWITTER account.                     I have a TWITTER account!
16. I am not a BLOGGER.                                     I am a BLOGGER!
17. I sleep every before 2300, wake up every         I can stay up late, even until 0300! I can wake up                                                                0630.                                                          even if it's 0200!
18. My day was like "scheduled".                           I am like "Just late for 30 minutes what..."
19. I am alone.                                                   I am a part of all of YOU! I do hope so.
20. No one knows me. I don't know who am I.           My role in my life: I am a FRIEND...

To my friends, I will not regret, I never regret for changing and, I think it worth!

What I wanna say is... thanks for changing ME!

Hey! not only one changed me, all of YOU changed me, O.K.?

And, I enjoy these changes!

What I need is...

Tiring day.


What I need is... I mean...

When I was kid, I never want to sleep...

When I grew up, I treasure every moment I dream...

I fell hard...

The higher you climb, the harder you fall...

The question is, why didn't you let me fall earlier...?

The earlier I fell, the lesser the pain I have to endure...

Why...? Why are you late?

If you say that you are in a good timing,

I hope it does is ...

What can I do...?

What should I do...?

I think... I know what shall I do...

What I want to do, but I will not do. For now...

The things that I'm going to list out below are something that I want to do, 
but I won't do it maybe just because I think it is an IMMATURE act or I am not BOLD enough to do it.


1. Punch any of my friends in his FACE! *with no reasons*
Then, we have a FIGHT in school!


2. Yell at my friend LOUDly, I mean VIOLENTly! *with no reasons*
Then we both stand up and wail at each other in the class, then everybody gawks at us!


3. Debate or Scold any of my teachers. *for experience*
Then we debate in front of the class and everybody gapes at us!


4. Spill my plate of food or bowl of soup onto others "accidentally". *with no reasons*
Then he scolds me, I say sorry insincerely.


5. Play truant. *for fun*
But I did not get caught!


6. Play truant. *for fun*
And I get caught!


7. To be cocky or snobby. *with no reasons*
Then I will be hate by everyone!


8. To be a bad guy, or someone with no any achievements. *for experience*
Then I will experience their life or, maybe I will have no stress at all!


9. Have a girl friend. *for experience or for myself*
Then end this relationship before my secondary school's life...


10. Bursting all the secrets that I have, or my friends' secrets that I have. *with no reasons*
And we ended our friendship. Or they ended their friendship.


**Reminder: I will not do it. And, do not ever expect that I will do it.

THESE are those who mean A LOT to ME... #5

Hee... Hee... Do you know it's your turn?
Huh? Who? SHE! J.!!! Well... who is SHE?

**warning: don't fall for her...

Awww... she is so attractive! that's what I would say~

Introducing her! She is J.!

And she is an extreme fan of K.stuff!!! Especially LMH!

See? Her smile is so charming! 

And, she is so beautiful! (well... many of us say so...)

Hmmm... Since when did I know her? Since I was 15, I think so~

(hah! I don't really know her at that time!

Argh! You know, I was very bad at socialising and no one would notice me before!)

And, you just popped up, just before I'm gonna end my secondary school's life!

Haha! Well, I think we didn't communicate much too!

Except through typing or writing...

I've already said, I'm not good at talking at all!

Hey, J., you know what? I LIKE you so much, and I enjoyed during our first conversation!

Until I forgot that I need to sleep! 

You are the first girl who shared her things with ME!

Well... sincerely, you gave me an impression of like "I am always sad..." before!

And this impression lasts... until lately, until the moment I think that

"How could it be possible for anyone to be sad at all the time?! You are YOU again!"

Hah! Silly ME!

Well, maybe I know not much about you, J. but at least a little bit, right?

What would I say?

Hmmm... Keep your smile, J.. Your smile keeps your FRIENDs happy!

You don't wanna see all your friends sad too, right?

Well, do you know that you are in my BFF's list?

I left a seat of  at least a FRIEND for you in my heart!

You have ME around YOU! You have US around YOU!

No matter what happens... 

or whenever you wanna spill your feelings, 

there will always be a bottle which will never be filled to the brim!

And, the cap will be closed too if any feelings are poured into it...

At least I will try hard to close it.

** All of the above that I've written is my opinions and my feelings,

she maybe not as nice as you imagined, or as I described.

THESE are those who mean A LOT to ME... #4

O.K., this maybe the first GIRL that appears in this blog, but... but... don't need to be so surprise!
Well, who is SHE?!

pretty right? yes, in my opinion.

Hmmm... what can I talk about her?

Well, I knew her since I was 16... Yes, Form 4... 

(actually I don't really know who is SHE at that time!)

Well, we didn't really communicate MUCH, I mean chat orally, not through typing or writing...

arghhh... you know, I'm not good at talking... 

Why would I wanna write about her? 

I think, it's because she gave me a nice image, or whatever... I don't know...

I think I LIKE her so much during the days of trial exam!

She sms-ed me so many tips, well... she is the first one who did that!

Hey, I sms-ed her tips also, O.K.?

And this continued until the trial exam ended...

Hmmm... And besides, you know what?

It feels good when you realise that you have companions in early morning, 

I mean approximately at 0200 or 0300...

You will feel kinda... warm, you know?!

Hah! I think this would be part of the memories which I will certainly remember: 

WE FOUGHT TOGETHER BEFORE!

Hey, remember ME, I woke YOU up in the early early morning before!

Well, I think that you are caring, at least towards FRIENDs!

YOU are one of the girls who I ever met that would be nice towards ME!

You are in my BFF's list!

Or... you wanna be my BRO? Ermmm... don't ask me to be your SIS...

It's my pleasure to meet you before I'm gonna end my secondary school's life.

And... I will undoubtedly remember your existence as at least a FRIEND in my secondary school's life!

Caring, helping, tolerance. 

These are what FRIENDSHIP is made up of.

These are what called BOND.

** All of the above that I've written is my opinions and my feelings,

she maybe not as nice as you imagined, or as I described.

My life changed...

If you wanna say that life's like a graph, I hope that my life is at the point x=-1 of the y=x^3 graph.

If you want me to describe my secondary life, the picture below represents my secondary life.

I love this picture so much! It's representing the happiness of my secondary life!

What I think is, how nice it would be if this lasts an eternity.

But, this would never happens...

THESE are those who mean A LOT to ME... #3

I met this one since I was 14, this is the one I took him as one of my BFF, or... "dailou?" just before I'm gonna end my secondary life. Well, no matter what I took him as, who is HE?


HERE! Down below!!!

THIS is how he looks like!

sunny, funny, and charmy right?

Oh well, what to say about him, huh?

股王？no... no... is 鼓王！

Why would I say that? 

Cause everyone thinks that he is sooo charming when he had a pair of drum sticks in his hands, on the stage!

See, see... you see the last photo... he is staring at me... opsss!

Well, well... how to describe him?

HE, entered our class this year, and yet, he can adapt to this hectic environment which is full of competitions so fast that you can't even believe!

And, this is why I have so much admiration towards HIM!

Not just because of that, it's also because he has so many friends too! 

He is good at making friends with... no matter who they are. 

No matter students from classes behind or students from classes at front, his juniors or his seniors!

I admire him for his extremely widened social network too!

Oh, how can I describe this GOD, huh? 

HE is a GOD who is good at sport, an intelligent GOD with diligence!

O.K., why would I say he is diligent? Haha! Here's one situation, 

Lshi: "Hey, wake me up at 0200 tomorrow!" 

ME: "WHY? o.0" 

Lshi: "Cause Jqian studies until 0500 everyday! :O" 

ME: "..."

Well, well... Now here's his influences on ME!

I think it's because of him, I changed from a NERD to a... a what, huh? 

Hmmm... a student who is willing to socialise with others!

You know what? Before 17, I was used to confine myself in the house and study, study and study... 

Nehh... I'm not that sick yet, I did play games and do some sports too! 

Well, knowing HIM, my life CHANGED! 

HE changed my life style, HE changed my attitude, HE changed my opinion towards my life! 

HE taught me a lot of things too! 

HE taught me how to treat others nicely, HE taught me how to behave myself, 

and the most unforgettable, HE taught me to keep my mouth shut... 

And, I would really like to thank him for chewing me out that time... I mean it SINCERELY!

Well, I do take you as a BRO, as a FRIEND, as a TEACHER of mine... 

I would kindly hope that you took me as your BRO too, or, at least your FRIEND?

Maybe you don't know ME much, maybe I don't know YOU much... But, this was once our friendship, and, I really really hope that this bond does not loosen... 

YOU will always be at least a FRIEND in my heart.

Bonds. No matter it's a covalent bond, no matter it's a ionic bond, whatever bond it is... it's a bond.

** All of the above that I've written is my opinions and my feelings,

he maybe not as nice as you imagined, or as I described.

Today and Tonight, late night.

Today, today... What I did today?
Well, I used to have fun with my friends in the morning of Saturdays... in the library.

Same as a usual Saturday, we went to the library.
There were Vrock, MrMingboy, Jqian, Matt, Wjiong, Jjung, Ryi, Itik, Wnee, Yfen, Lchin (well, I didn't see her but they say she was at there), and a new friend Jun  in the library this Saturday!
Well, I think that the library wasn't like the usual library we went before anymore! It was crowded with students. It's O.K. for me, but the problem was THEY made a cacophony of noise! Which made me had to use a pair of earphones to pretend that I was listening to songs, but actually, I was trying to "stuck" my ear holes with them...
Weird ME...
hoo hoo~ sincerely, I admit that WE, that group of friends made some noise too!

In the library, we planned to have our exercise at night, 2000 until 2200.
What kinda exercise? We call it "badminton"...

Well, well, inviting the GIRLS...
Matt and ME: "ROCK, PAPER, SCISSORS!"
Who won? Of course it's ME! I used to win in ROCK, PAPER, SCISSORS!
And, I'm the one who took the responsibility to open my mouth and invite them.

I met a cool guy in the library who was wearing a cool jacket!

Inform me when you realise who is HE!

cool right? I think it's cool! sorry, the IT is the jacket.

RING!!!!! O.K. time's up! Go home and prepare for OUR night!

Tonight, I was driving a "manual"-ed MYVI, as the "auto"-ed, huge, big, black car was GONE! I mean my dad drove it away, not missing...
I would like to apologize if I've scared those who sat in my car, such as Jqian, Matt, Wjiong, Yfen, Wqi.
Well, I'm not use to drive a "manual"-ed car!

After an extreme sporty night, and after a LONG discussion, we made our decision to go to MCD!
Hmmm... the first time I drove at this LATE, DARK night. But, nevermind, we had FUN! 

No matter who are they, as long as they are my friends, as long as all of them are happy, I'm happy.

Coca-cola-ed, Sundae-ed, McChicken-ed, Spicy McChicken-ed...

It's time to go home! After dropping one of them (the one we stalked), we went back to the area I live.
And all of the sudden, "WA-CHA---" the rain just fell!

Hmmm... it's time for our Gentleman, Jqian to perform! HE umbrella-ed two girls outta my car, no, it's my mum's car into their house
but he was the one who was drenched! Gentleman right? Yes, he is such a nice guy!

He shivered in my car...

Driving pass so many lampposts, with the yellow lights shinning, with no cars around me, with the rain hitting on the car's windows... 

Suddenly, I had a feeling of LONELY... and, yeah, this is the world without friends.

This late night made a big contrast with my morning, afternoon and early night.

0151: My today ends here and now.

Friends are those who have fun with us. 
Friends are those who we can share our heart with.

Friends are those who are willing to lend a helping hand when you need it.  

Friends are those who you will never forget for your whole life time.

Now, who is the one appear in your mind? 
Ya! He/ She is one of your friends. or maybe more!

THESE are those who mean A LOT to ME... #2

It's 1456 now, I just had my lunch with MrMingboy.

And, I'm gonna tell you what I know about him... 

What HE means to me... 

Or maybe what I think about him...

Now, THIS is how HE looks like...

THIS is how HE looks like... And THIS is him!

Well, well... what to talk about him, huh?

O.K., now here is it!

I think I don't know him well until the age of 17!

All of the sudden, HE just popped up in my life, 
just before I'm gonna end my secondary school's life...

I did regret for not knowing him earlier...

In my opinion, HE is a talented guy and a sporty guy too!
As you can see, HE DANCES! 

And besides that,
HE is mature, he is diligent in his studies and he knows a lot of things too!

He is good at socialising with others, and for your information,
THIS is WHY I'm so friend with HIM!

Well, well... as a teenager, we all have a lot of secretsss, right? Ya, he has too!

And I am THE ONE he chose to share the SECRETs with!

It's my pleasure to have someone who TRUST ME a lot!

HE takes ME as a RIVAL. HE takes ME as a FRIEND. HE takes ME as a BRO.

I also took HIM as a RIVAL. I also take HIM as a FRIEND! I also take HIM as a BRO!

DO YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?

Well, MrMingBoy, maybe I didn't share a lot of things with you...
but, I hope you don't mind...

I know YOU don't mind right? Wow~ you are so NICE!

What must be kept should be kept, and, it's kept nicely...

** All of the above that I've written is my opinions and my feelings,

he maybe not as nice as you imagined, or as I described.

THESE are those who mean A LOT to ME...

Who are those who mean a lot to me? Well, besides my family, the rest is

FRIENDS

O.K. Well, well... here come the first!

whow... whow... charming, huh?

*warning* Do not fall in love with him! He already owned so many girls' hearts!

How to describe him, huh?

A cute guy? YES.

Handsome? YES.

Is he a nice friend? OF COURSE!

Well, I knew him since I was 8 years old, and until now! Who is him? One of my BFF!

HE, a talented man with lots of muscles, which representing his sporty-ness,

with a huge brain, which representing his intelligence! 

Hmmm... His image as a very obedient BOY has not changed since the first I met him!

He follows all of his mum's commands I think...

"SIT!" "OK..." "STAND UP!" "OK~"

Honestly, I admire him too... No, is envy...

He is always GOOD at everything...

Some kinda like reaching a level of SUPERMAN, in my opinion...

I am blessed, to have a SUPERMAN as my friend!

WELL... This friendship had already lasted for SEVERAL years.

Sincerely, I hope this friendship lasts FOREVER...

No matter when. No matter where. No matter who we are.

HE, IS MY BEST FRIEND FOREVER.

** All of the above that I've written is my opinions and my feelings,

he maybe not as nice as you imagined, or as I described.

Introduction!

THIS is the first post.
What should I write, huh? I'm gonna write what I wanna write!

O.K. I'm gonna introduce myself!

First of all, who am I?
I'm just an ordinary teenager who is having his secondary school's life, which most of the teenagers or students think that it's a monotonous life. Well, sometimes I think so... But not always!

Same as most of us, I mean MOST of us, not all of us, I am living in a family with a DAD, a MUM and a SISTER. My DAD and MUM are still affording my studies, because, I STILL DON'T HAVE THE ABILITY TO LIVE ALONE!!!
And, my silly SISTER... Hah! There's many things I can tell about her, but not now~

Then, for my physical description.
A male, well... I'm natural, haven't undergone any "sex-changing operation"...
For my height? Not very tall, as how tall as the last Asian man you 've seen before...
And, I'm skinny, have a dark skin colour with a head of usual black hair and black eyes...
Am I handsome? Neh! Still just an ordinary human with an ordinary face, with no extra eyes or noses!

Hmmm... That's all! I'm just a simple guy with simple mind!

Do you know what I mean?